16 things to do before I turn 16

  • Submit an article to Oh Comely Magazine
  • Successfully play Brahms' sonata in F minor
  • Learn shorthand
  • Have a sleepover of which any idealist would be jealous
  • Collate all my poems and draft them in anthology form
  • Drink wine until I feel its velvety effect on my mind
  • Finish the dozens of books that I started this year
  • Run 1.6k in 6 minutes(ish) - okay this is starting to prove impossible, but oh well
  • Check all bridges for signs of smoke (it's a euphemism)
  • Get through the first stages of publishing a book of my poems 
  • Plan a wondrous party that suits my annoyingly idealistic needs
  • Write a short story
  • Go to Hong Kong
  • Decorate my room
  • Spend a day listening to classical music and reading French poetry
  • Successfully get into a(nother) school publication

Inventorium

So, if I am to be truthfully honest, as an immediate means of procrastination, I have decided to post the many lists that I keep about my person (or rather - in my hardback Moleskine when they desert the memory of "my person"). The lists will comprise subject matter such as; my bucket list, the (primarily 80's) movies I am in dire need of watching, the numerous works of literature that I am in dire need of doing, and my most recent (currently impalpable) creation: sixteen things to do in the ephemeral space of time left before I turn sixteen.

Now, being even more truthful in my honesty, I made this post chiefly so that I could see such an ostensively scholarly word as Inventorium in the pretty italicised font of my title. Well that confirms my worst fear that my need for style would someday supersede that of substance.

Why I have chosen to replace the generic "brutal honesty" with "truthful honesty" I fail to understand.

(With a lightly-scratched head) Signing off,

R. Louise

"Throw those curtains wide"





Today just feels so genuinely lovely.

It technically started at midnight (don't all days?), when my parents got home and I wished my mum a happy birthday. One dozy, daylight-induced slumber later and we're humbly apologising for "only getting a couple of gifts"and simultaneously preparing a breakfast of coffee, croissants and orange juice. She's insisted on doing nothing productive with her hours of daylight and so we're going out to dinner later.

So I've showered and dressed and for five minutes or so gazed into the clouds past a pair of superimposed tanned knees, with the opening tunes of Neutral Milk Hotel's album faintly playing to my left. Unfortunately my duties as birthday girl's daughter can be postponed no more and it is time to do the dishes.

I now reward myself with the browsing of my only two copies of Oh Comely, and allow myself the time to draft a letter in my head. Occasional visits from my sister - latest watercolour painting in hand - has caused me to decide upon her profession (as an illustrator), and I have mentally commissioned hundreds of works to keep her busy. I can only hope that she takes art next year.

We - my sister and I - have listened to One Day Like This at least - oh, I don't know - seven times in the last half hour. It is a mixture of the melody and lyrics that leave me with the indomitable impulse to think in terms of idealistic nostalgia, and produce a welling of tears in my voice. I can only speculate as to whether or not I shall feel the want to open up my half-empty notebook, and keep it so for a while.

Though it is well past midday, approaching two o' clock in fact, it feels like the sort of day where the afternoon will never come. And I sincerely hope it doesn't.